Coke addiction...Am I childish?

I think I am really addicted to coca-cola. I dunno why I always feel like wanna drink it suddenly. I told my friends that I wanna drink coke while we are chatting on msn (it sounds ridiculous?Well, maybe it is....). One of them said I am not mature because I can't control myself (it's like if I wanted to get something, I must get it right now).This is what people called childish?I sounds like a pampered kid?I should learn how to control myself and should not ask others to do something sounds impossible for me?Yes, I admit that I am always request something ridiculous from someone but I realize that I will only do that to ... (my ex is one of the victims.... I think he experienced it more than anyone...may be I should apologize to him...).When we havn't break up, I admit that I always ask him to do this do that for me but I don't think it's ridiculous (I dunno...maybe he think it's ridiculous..). He always says that I am like a child because I can't take care of myself and he need to do this do that for me(Actually, I am really appreciate what he did for me....hehe..).Tell frankly, I like to see him to do every single thing for me and fulfill my ridiculous request.Not that I wanted to torture him, it's just because I can feel his love from everything he did for me..Besides, I like to throw tantrum at him.However, he hate to see me for being so emo. Actually, I just want him to lend me his ears and try to comfort me. I didn't mean to angry with him or show him faces.Am i sounds like a pampered kid? Or i want my boyfriend pampered me?Sometime I think my childish behavior is one of the reason that make him fed up of me.....Am I really so childish? Am i really so ridiculous? Following is a very meaningful song to me....


不够成熟 by by2
想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念
你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要试过几次了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手


想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念
你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要试过几次了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手


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倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手