人言可畏

很无言，真的真的无言。。很多时候，我都选择沉默。不是我错了，只是不想得理不饶人。况且，公道自在人心，不多说也不见得理亏。越来越不想说话，因为现实真的让人无言，让人无话可说。所以当一个人变得沉默寡言，变得越来越不想说话，不必觉得奇怪。哎！算了！真的不必介意，不必在乎别人对我的看法和他们说的话。这一切根本不重要，更不管我的事，毕竟嘴是他们的。虽然有些话真的很伤人，但真的没必要去计较。放心吧！我会原谅。

好乱。。。

这几天，好像发生了好多事情，这些都是三言两语不能说清的。曾几何时，我多希望你会回到我身边。也许时间真的已经慢慢使我遗忘对你的感觉，虽然我不曾遗忘你对我的好，但这已不是所谓的爱。。。我讨厌你的打扰，但当我設身为你想想，是的，也许你比我还可怜。我想，我应该选择原谅。我不想弄清谁对谁错，这一切真的已不再重要。。。或许，真相会让你我更加狼狈，难堪。。
后来，另一个人闯进了我的生活。曾经，我多么希望能成为你的家人，心里清楚现在已不可能了。我恨，恨你对我的好，对我的爱，恨你对我的一切。。。。还以为你一片真心，但我想是我错了，也许这只是我一厢情愿罢了。不管你说了什么，做了什么，我只能说很失望也很伤心，你是一个会在我背后做小动作的人。。难道这就是你所谓的爱？設身为你想想，也许你真的比我还可怜。我想，我也应该选择原谅。
我恨，真的好恨不能相信的感觉。我多么希望我能选择相信，但事实已证明我不能相信你们。我想遗忘，遗忘这一切，那我们以后见面时也不会那么难堪。。或许，我们不会再遇见彼此。。。我强烈的感觉到，我已很难再相信，即使面对我爱的人，也不例外。。我真的不懂，这还算不算爱。。。没有信任的感情，能维持多久。。我不敢想，也不想懂。。

It hurts...

Will you go out with me if I don't have money?(I know this question means will I still go out with you if you don't have money to buy clothes for me!)
This question really annoyed me!! You thought that I go out with you just because of your money?! I admit that I am materialistic. I admit I am a shopaholic. However, I am not such a greedy person!When you ask me that question, I knew there is no trust between you and me...I can see our friendship is so fragile....4 years friendship...I am so disappointed in you. You doubt my personality! How can you do that?You say you love me and want me to be your gf yet you doubt my personality?!Don't you think it's ridiculous?What does friendship means?Do love really exists?
Another matter even more ridiculous!!!Someone said that he removed my messaging address from his msn contact list just because I told him that he keep disturbing me. He removed my contact so he won't disturb me and I still can send message to him! Don't you think it's ridiculous?I don't think that you will remove someone from your contact list just because you don't wanna disturb him or her!It's just an excuse! If you are not satisfy or angry with me because I have done something annoyed you, you can tell me directly or scold right in front of me. I know I don't have the right ask you not to delete my meassaging address from your contact list.However, I will definitely look down on you if you do that just because you are angry with me (I don't even know what did I do that annoyed you!!).
It's really sad to know that your friend do all those things to you. May be I am too naive. I trust my friends easily.I thought I treat them sincerely they will treat me like that too but everything proved I am wrong!!!I knew I've been a fool to trust everyone easily!!I am not going to trust anyone from now onwards!!I don't wanna get hurt anymore!!!


Once your heart get hurt, the wound will never be cured....