Lost again!!!

Hate myself. It's not complicated at all. It's just as simple as that. Please don't think too much!!! Stop blurring! Midterm test is coming soon. I should have prepared well for it but I feel so unprepared! Found it even hard after studying!!!! My brain is still so empty to answer those questions in my mind. Why? Why? Why? Should I stop asking why?! Why such stupid thing always happen to me? This makes me even more stupid!!!! Don't I look stupid enough?