不是你不在乎，只是我把你看得太重。。。

如果当时你没有离开我，我是否还会觉得孤独？如果你不曾走进我心里，我现在还会不会想起你？也许能戒掉想你的习惯，就不会那么容易觉得疲惫吧？如果人生真的能有选择，我好希望能永远睡得像她那么甜。真的好矛盾，我想逃避对你一切的记忆，却又想能在梦里回到我们以前的那段日子。好多年了，我始终忘不了你的一切，你的眼神，你的笑容，你对我许下的承诺，我从没忘记过，但我知道它不会实现了。我想偶而想念你，应该也是种幸福吧？曾几何时，我真的好爱好爱你，我真的好希望能和你一起走到最后，也许现在连想像这一切都是种奢望吧。。。虽然你已不能和我一起走到人生的尽头，但你将永远存在于我心里的某个角落。我知道如果我不把你遗忘，我的幸福会离我越来越远。。有句话很有道理，不是你不在乎，只是我把你看得太重。是的，我不会再介意你是否还爱我，在乎我。。。。是我不应该把你看得太重，你只不过是我生命中一个特别的过客。。。如果还有机会在见到你，我希望我能告诉你，是的，我已经不再想起你了。。。。是的我想我会忘了你。。

Happy Family...

This is what I experience when I went to KL with my friend. Well, i think i start with my friend first. He came late to meet me at Pudu! I really hate him at that time.I throw tantrum and scold him directly when he sms and call me.Why everytime go out with him he sure come late?!When he reach Pudu, I scold him and didn't care how others look at us .My friend keep apologize and trying to comfort me at that time (I wonder he will still do that if he is not wooing me...may be he will just leave me alone or he will slap me or scold me?!).Actually, i know he does not mean to do that but i just coundn't control myself.Luckily he didn't angry with me..haha...He even went to 7-11 bought ferreror rocher and coca-cola for me.He thought that will make me not angry with him.Hehe.He was wrong.I didn't even eat it.Haha.I think I am really bad!Sorry,I didn't mean to do that too.Well, his relative really impress me.I am so envy that they are so close to each other and their relation is really good.My friend keep telling me that his family like me a lot. Yes, I can feel that(actually this is not the first time i meet his family). I like to be with his family too. It's so warm!I wish I could have the same relative too!Haha.His relative treat me so nice.They treat me just like I am their family member!They are so sincere.I can tell from what they do for me and the way they treat me.They even fetch me back to Kampar just because I overslept.I am really appreciate it.Too bad I really don't know how to show my appreciation.I feel so guilty upon this. What i can do is only say thank you to them.Well, I really wish I can be their family member too but I think it's really quite impossible.Er..After all, i just want to say I really feel warm and happy when staying with them and I really hope they can have good relationship forever.

甜甜的感觉。。淡淡的幸福。。。

不知大家曾经有过甜甜的感觉？
如果说快乐是浓浓的幸福，那甜甜的感觉则是淡淡的幸福。。
曾经我以为甜甜的感觉仅仅存在于恋人之间，但我发现原来这种感觉也能存在于家人和朋友间。。。哈哈。。。我觉得呢其实甜甜的感觉比快乐的的感觉更难得。呃。。怎么说呢？呃。。。可能甜甜的感觉是一种只有在对的时间和对的人才能感觉到的感觉吧。。。换句话说它是种可遇不可求的感觉吧。。。哈哈。。。我想如果你不曾亲身体验应该很难明白我在说什么吧。。哈哈。。被爱让我第一次尝到了这种感觉的滋味。当时还天真地以为只要能和爱我的人永远在一起，那么这种神奇的感觉就永远不会消失。但现实往往是残酷的，爱不仅让你觉得甜，接踵而来的是心痛和心碎的感觉。这几天我发觉原来不止被爱才会有这种感觉。。哈哈。。至于为什么又有这种感觉呢？我并不想在这里和大家分享。。。哈哈。。很自私吧？哈哈。。。这就是我。。哈哈。。就告诉你一点点，有时候发发脾气也是会有这种感觉。。哈哈。。。我想也许有天我会忘了什么事让我感觉快乐，但我不会忘了什么事让我有这种甜甜的感觉。。。哈哈。。。它是心中永远的记忆，一个永远磨灭不去的烙印。

my 1st post! a happy day!

Actually, nothing much to talk today. I just wanna say I am so happy today! Seriously, I don't feel happy for a very long time. Errr...It's long until i couldn't remember when is the last time i feel so happy.LOL.Haha.Actually, it's normal to see a normal person being so happy. However, it's really abnormal to see an emo kid like me feeling so happy. Don't you think so? Huh?!Tell frankly, i rarely feel happy.LOL.Don't ask me why i am always so emo. I really don't know how to answer this question. Well, I wish i can feel happy everyday too but don't know why I just couldn't do that!!You couldn't wait to know why an emo kid feels so happy today right?Hehe. I am gonna leave Kampar for one day ++. Hehe. I am going to KL with my friend on Saturday.LOL. I know you r laughing at me....LOL...It sounds silly right? Hehe. It's not i never go to KL before, it's just because i can leave Kampar, a place without warmth! I feel so happy even i only not here for one day+.Hehe. Nah, you can see how much i hate this place right?A place that i gonna stay for 3 years plus for uni life ....a place without McD.....a place got a U called UTAR...a place got a lot of lakes...a place a lot of people cycling...a place...well, enough...if not you are gonna be bored to death ....hehe.....hooray...gonna leave this place....a place makes my life so miserable.....haha...