Coke addiction...Am I childish?

I think I am really addicted to coca-cola. I dunno why I always feel like wanna drink it suddenly. I told my friends that I wanna drink coke while we are chatting on msn (it sounds ridiculous?Well, maybe it is....). One of them said I am not mature because I can't control myself (it's like if I wanted to get something, I must get it right now).This is what people called childish?I sounds like a pampered kid?I should learn how to control myself and should not ask others to do something sounds impossible for me?Yes, I admit that I am always request something ridiculous from someone but I realize that I will only do that to ... (my ex is one of the victims.... I think he experienced it more than anyone...may be I should apologize to him...).When we havn't break up, I admit that I always ask him to do this do that for me but I don't think it's ridiculous (I dunno...maybe he think it's ridiculous..). He always says that I am like a child because I can't take care of myself and he need to do this do that for me(Actually, I am really appreciate what he did for me....hehe..).Tell frankly, I like to see him to do every single thing for me and fulfill my ridiculous request.Not that I wanted to torture him, it's just because I can feel his love from everything he did for me..Besides, I like to throw tantrum at him.However, he hate to see me for being so emo. Actually, I just want him to lend me his ears and try to comfort me. I didn't mean to angry with him or show him faces.Am i sounds like a pampered kid? Or i want my boyfriend pampered me?Sometime I think my childish behavior is one of the reason that make him fed up of me.....Am I really so childish? Am i really so ridiculous? Following is a very meaningful song to me....


不够成熟 by by2
想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念
你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要试过几次了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手


想我还是不够成熟
还达不到你的要求
我真的没有想的太多
只是怀念
你走以后
离开难道真的是解脱
难道真的要试过几次了以后才懂
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手


如果有一刻我们有缘在见
你会不会想起说过的永远


倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
倔强抬起头决不让眼泪往下流
倔强说不痛假装什么伤都没有
真的不难过笑着和你挥挥手

.......

當你走在最暗的路上不用害怕
當你走在最崎嶇的路上無須驚慌
因為在你的右手上
絕對有我的左手在
也許我不夠堅強
但還有你溫柔的心房可以填上

成功的人生。。

成功的秘訣就是：我一輩子都不做我不能勝任的事情，有句話說勝任愉快像我當年也是因數學，英文不好才唸中文系的，其實人最重要的是要了解自己，走最適合自己的路什麼才叫成功？
我覺得只要達到以下三點就是成功：
1.我是好人
2.我是有用的人
3.我是快樂的人
哈哈。。。在某网看到这段话。是为我而写的吗？哈哈。。。我离成功还远呢！第一，我还不了解自己，还找不到适合自己的路。。。还有呢。。我不是好人。有用的人？应该还没什么用吧。。。我是快乐的人？？哈哈。。。快乐。。。应该是种奢望吧！！哈哈。。。。我还没成功。。。你呢？？

Happy April Fool! Haha!!

有一封愚人节短信的前半段是这样：
我以后都不会在理你了。。。你不要问我为什么。。你应该自己去反省反省。。。想想看到底是为什么吧！
哈哈，既然还有人会被我这封短信骗到。。。哈哈。。。应该是被这封短信吓到了吧？？哈哈。。他既然还说There is a 80% suscess chance to cheat a people that just wake up by ur call or msg（别问我为什么是80%，我也不懂。。）。。。。哈哈。。。。你觉得你被骗是因为你刚从美梦中惊醒？哈哈。。。我倒觉得如果你平常不做对不起我的事，那你就不会被骗了。。。哈哈。。。我没被这封短信短信骗到。。。哈哈。。你呢？

Life!!!!

I am really fed up of my life!It's keep repeating and meaningless. It's so boring!!!Extremely boring!!!I think I am gonna be bored to death soon!!!! Anyone can help me??!Why I have to study here? Why i have to learn to solve those complicated calculations in finance and cost accounting?Anyone tell me why?I don't even know who am I and what I want!!!! Why everyone have at least one goal in their life except me???Is it the reason that I feel life is meaningless to me? Is it true that I must experience this kind of torturing life only can be succeed in my life? Well, I don't know what does success means to me. Career? Wealth? Haiz..Whatever it is...I am lost!!Seriously, I need some guidance!!!Can anyone tell me what is life and the way to make it meaningful and interesting?

嫉妒是把双刃刀，最后不是刺伤别人，就是刺进自己心里。。。

Today I met xxx in lecture class, I just couldn't know why it can affect my mood.Well, we are not enemy, I don't think that we hate each other, neither she and I. May be I am only the one to be so sensitive and thinking too much. Well, I think I got such a weird feeling towards her just because of jealousy. I have to admit that I jealous of her good result. I know I shouldn't jealous. I know she can get good result because she really put a lot of effort on her study but i just couldn't control myself not to jealous. This also remind me about another girl that make me jealous. Well, she is a pretty girl but I don't think she has good characters ( she seems like so naive but like to take advantage form others, selfish and many more...).It is not only my opinion, it's also based on my friends' observation. Although she is not that good, she can always get whatever she wanted. She get a good boyfriend. Handsome, rich, and treat her very well. She can always get branded stuff, free vacation and so on from her boyfriend. It's eye sore to see that, don't you think so? I don't think she deserve it. By the way, i just want to share my opinions and express my feeling(I know I don't have the right to judge and criticize others). Hehe. I am not a good girl too since I am always jealous with what others have. I think I should satisfy with my current state.Haiz....嫉妒是把双刃刀，最后不是刺伤别人，就是刺进自己心里。。。This sentence is really meaningful. I think jealousy will only hurt myself since I wouldn't harm others even I am extremely jealous and not satisfy with them. Hehe. I think I really have to control myself not to jealous with what others have. Hehe. May be i should tell myself I am better than them and I deserve better. I am thick-skinned, am I?

不是你不在乎，只是我把你看得太重。。。

如果当时你没有离开我，我是否还会觉得孤独？如果你不曾走进我心里，我现在还会不会想起你？也许能戒掉想你的习惯，就不会那么容易觉得疲惫吧？如果人生真的能有选择，我好希望能永远睡得像她那么甜。真的好矛盾，我想逃避对你一切的记忆，却又想能在梦里回到我们以前的那段日子。好多年了，我始终忘不了你的一切，你的眼神，你的笑容，你对我许下的承诺，我从没忘记过，但我知道它不会实现了。我想偶而想念你，应该也是种幸福吧？曾几何时，我真的好爱好爱你，我真的好希望能和你一起走到最后，也许现在连想像这一切都是种奢望吧。。。虽然你已不能和我一起走到人生的尽头，但你将永远存在于我心里的某个角落。我知道如果我不把你遗忘，我的幸福会离我越来越远。。有句话很有道理，不是你不在乎，只是我把你看得太重。是的，我不会再介意你是否还爱我，在乎我。。。。是我不应该把你看得太重，你只不过是我生命中一个特别的过客。。。如果还有机会在见到你，我希望我能告诉你，是的，我已经不再想起你了。。。。是的我想我会忘了你。。