Microecons midterm 2

Miroecons mid-term 2 is coming soon...I must get the highest mark no matter what!!!!! i can't believe that I want it so badly!!! have to be serious in preparing for it from now...

拿得起放得下，放不下的就别拿。

现在的心情，除了不安，还是不安。不知为什么，我越不想这样，我的心就越不听使唤。。我不喜欢这样，一点都不喜欢。我越不想看，就越清晰。我越不想想，脑里想的却是同一件事。我越想逃，就越逃不掉。。。为什么？为什么？我的人生不应该这样，真的不应该就只是这样，我不甘心。。。我不想重蹈覆辙，不应该再被同样的事情困扰。拿得起放得下，放不下的就别拿。这句话说得很对。自问，我有什么事能放得下的？没有！就因为执着，我什么都不想放下，什么都不愿放下，到最后却把自己拖垮了。很多时候，我们肩上的担子，不是别人给的，而是自己给自己的。我真的该好好反省了。。。也许放下会更好。。。

Haiz...

My classmates think I am a very hardworking (of course in studying not house chores ) and serious person. Even they don't know much about me but they can tell all these by looking at my homeworks, class participation and the way I handle my assignments. I have no comments about this because I am really serious in studying. However, I feel uncomfortable with them by saying that I am a typical top student and I sure can score well in exams. I might be a good student but definitely not a top student. Its my responsibility to do this as a student. I don't know what makes them think I am a typical top student ==". No matter how hard I trying to deny it, they will think that I am just being modest. I admit that I am too concern about how people judge me so any unintended judgments can easily hurt my feeling. I don't know how would they look at me if they know my result is only average but not excellent. This makes me really stress. I wish I can be the top student too..(of course it's not only because of them but it's for self-achievement also) haiz...All these are only their opinions but why end up I am the one being so depressed?

It's over!

Really angry of myself!! I still feel sad that I went late for the exam :( haiz.. Keep telling myself it' over and no use crying over split milk..The exam won't be held again...Everything is over...There is nothing can change the current situation.. I have to accept the fact that I will get low marks for the test....No matter how many effort I put in it..It just screw up like that and there is nothing I can do now. Nothing!! Regret? For what? Sad? So what? It's all my fault!!Haiz...Everything is too late now...It's too late..Too late for everything!Haizz...I should delete it from my memory so I won't think of it again and again..I need to do it..I should not be defeated...Haiz..I have to admit this incident has been affected my mood for the coming tests. Haiz..I must think positively so it won't affect the coming test's performance...Haiz..just don't think about it..I might forget about it sooner or later..:(

Overslept!

I late for my microecons midterm test because I overslept!!(i dun even heard anything when the alarm ringing and my friends call my hp and shout at me outside my windows!!!) I wonder if i fainted or really sleeping so "tightly". I late for half an hour ++!!! What the hell am I doing?! Luckily the invigilator allowed me to sit for the test but the answer sheet will be collected at the same time as other candidates.. Actually the exam start from 11am to 12:30pm, but I don't even have one hour time to finish all the questions since I late for 30 minutes++. Haiz..I lose 3% out of 20% for those questions that I can't finished.I know all the answers but I don't have enough time to do!!!! Haiz...Not sure I can get full marks for the other answers also.I think it's impossible for me to get 15% and above just because of the stupid mistake I made.Overslept!!!Shit!!Luckily this is mid-term test.I can't imagine what would happen to me if this is final exam...The 2nd microecons midterm test will be on week 8. I am not gonna oversleep anymore...I must do it better than this time!!!

Cherish

Really feel blessed whenever be with you. You are just like a treasure. A special treasure that can cure my pain, regain my passion towards life and many more. I will cherish YOU with all my heart..I will not allowed anything to ruin this..Really unwilling to let it go no matter what.. Hope all these can remain unchanged until the end of my life..Thanks God for giving me a chance to have it...Really appreciate..

Perfectionist!!

I'm always disappointed in myself for not reaching the goal that I wanted to achieve!Some of them say what I want is just too perfect. It's not gonna be materialized. I don't think they are right. I am not a perfectionist. I know very well noone around the world could be perfect. I never expect myself to be the perfect one but why I still fail to achieve my target? Is it that I expect too much of myself? High expectation always comes with high disappoinment, this is what my friend told me. I don't believe it but now...haiz.. I always think that it will never come true if you don't even think of it or give it a try!!! I think I was wrong. Totally wrong! May be it is just not mean to be yours. You will never get it no matter how hard you tried. I always expect myself to achieve this and that. It's sad to know that I can't achieve the result that I wanted. It's even worse than you can't achieve others' expectations.Really feel bad. How am I going to continue to work on it? It seems like I have in no position to have it!! Longing for something always but it never comes true. I doubt it will come true.Have faith in myself? It doesn't work!