Today isn't my birthday

Yes...today is not my birthday...my birthday is 10 Sepetember..I have received 2 gifts although my birthday will be on this thursday..one of the presents is from my friends and another one is from haha...secret...Actually my friend give me the present on last wednesday and they remind me to open it on my birthday but I opened it right after back to my room...haha...I am like a kid so impatient to wait till my birthday? I am quite moody last wednesady but you comfort me with your sincere friendship..thanks.. I like the bear bear photo frame...Another gift is from you...haha..Harry Potter series Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows...I already have six books of Harry Potter series.. you bought the last episode for me so I have all HP series books..haha... Thank you...Actually birthday presents is not the point,what I wanted to highlight is your sincere friendships and your love...I really appreciate it..I would never forget how you all console me whenever I feel sad..

我真的没事

对于这件事，说不再在乎，其实有点勉强。是的，我当然在乎，但至少不会在乎到非常严重的程度。顶多只是让我有点不开心罢了。其实，仔细想想过后，其实这样的结局还蛮好的。。呃。。也许连天都觉得不应该大材小用，把我放在这样的位置吧！既然连天都阻止了事情往不利于我的情况发展，我想我也不应该继续执著什么，对吧？事实上，没了这样东西，我相信命运中还是会安排另一样更好，更适合我的东西给我，所以我更加没资格去埋怨什么吧？毕竟，我不是没有努力过，努力付出了，但结果不是我想要的，因此我更加相信这会是命运给我最好的安排，下次我拥有的一定会是最好且令人羡慕的。。所以我更加不能放弃！我想我会是属于能做大事的类型，就因为这样，我有的是比别人更大的胸襟来承受更大的失败，比别人有更深一层的智慧。。。眼光也应该要比别人看得更远，更透彻。。。回头想想，这件事不过是我生命中的一小波折而已，比起其它大浪，这不过是朵小小浪花，冲击力也不过如此。所以，朋友，谢谢你们的关心，不要自责也不要担心，因为我真的没事。。。

道别孤单

渐渐熟络拉近彼此
简单关怀温暖彼此
我们相遇如此平凡
谁可曾想过会擦出
如此灿烂火花


因为有了你们
我向孤单道别
生命变得多彩
因为有了你们
我不需再徘徊
冷漠人群之中


我们曾用青春
唱出真诚微笑
我们曾用友谊
感动生命乐章
`

从不晓得友谊
如此珍贵难得
却在道别瞬间
闪烁不舍泪光


这份真心
让我们不再寂寞
这份友谊
让我们道别孤单


就算有天说再见
这份感情
将长存彼此心里
永不变质

P/S: this is for FETG1..friendship forever..^^

苦涩思念

作词: alisson

我站在阳台

静静地等待

夜幕的降临

也许这样才能

在夜的怀抱里沉睡

麻雀已归巢

只有我的心

盘旋在想你的天空

也许这样才能

往你在的方向飞去

想你很幸福

却始终抹不掉

其中的苦涩

我能不能不被

思念的海洋淹没

我能不能不在

没你的天空迷路

我的心盘旋

在想你的天空

也许这样才能

往你在的方向飞去

我能不能不被

思念的海洋淹没

我能不能不在

没你的天空迷路

想你很幸福

却始终抹不掉

其中的苦涩

我不要被

思念的海洋淹没

我不要在

没你的天空迷路

能不能让我忘了想你

能不能让我走出

苦涩思念

Just be yourself!

Haiz.....feel so tired..In fact, I didn't do anything except attended one tutorial class just now...sweat...Haiz....when I sit at cafeteria and in charge of the JCC recruitment drive that day..I feel so tiny when I saw so many people in front of me..I feel like wanna be somebody so everyone can pay attention on me...I don't wanna be nobody...Weird...Why most of the people wanna be somebody? Why don't I proud of who I am? Isn't I am so bad till me myself don't want to be the real myself? If I myself cannot recognise the importance of my existence in this world...Anyone else gonna do it? sometimes its good when people don't recognise you...so you don't have to feel stressed upon how people judge you...You have the freedom to do anything without worrying about how people will look at you..Those famous people cannot really do whatever they like because they care...they care about their image..how people look at them..I wonder why don't I enjoy the freedom to do anything I like since I am not famous and I won't be gossip by others..After all, I understood many things from it...Even you are just a normal person, you still can make your life different..you still can have a meaningful life...The most important is you are happy with your life.....and people happy with what you bring into their life and how you colour their life...Isn't this is how 'life' looks like? Thus,I should proud of who I am...I should proud of my identity that given by God.. I wanna be myself!!!I wanna be the one who truly understand the life!!

Uni life

I know my current state isn't what I expected....I know I am still not the one I expected..Everything is not as perfect as what I expected but I really appreciate everything in my life..I am satisfy with all the things that I have..I have to thank God for giving me all these so I can move forward to a better life...to be a better me.I strongly believe that everything is predestined but we can choose to change it..as long as we want it to be different...Everything that we born with couldn't be change but we can change our future by what we have..I am not gonna be defeated by obstacles....I am not gonna be defeated by reality..I am not that intelligent but I have alternative to get good result...I am not rich but I still can be rich in future..as long as I want it to be what I expected..There is so many friends around me...I shouldn't leave my University life a blank page.. I should enjoy University life with them..Many people say it's hard to get true friend in University..I am so lucky...God send so many friends to me in my University life. It's hard for me to get through the University life which possibly could be the hardest time in my life without friends. Friends, I admit I need their freindship...their help...need them to be my audience..I won't forget how good they treat me...how they accept me for who I am..I sincerely appreciate it...Year one sem one gonna end soon..We all really worry that we won't be in the same class anymore...We can choose the timetable for lecture class and tutorial class from next sem onwards....Anyway,I think our frindship wont fade away so easily eventhough we are not in the same class anymore but I really hope we still can be in the same class.... Luckily, we all cherish the time when we are together so there won't be any regrets..

我很傻，是不是？

你给的我的感觉，始终那么温暖。我发现，即使没见面，没通话，都无所谓。短短几封讯息，就能把我整天的烦恼一扫而空。只要是你说的话，就会一直在我脑海里浮现。你的身影，你的一举一动，是如此的清晰。我想，这就是思念吧。刚才在朋友家BBQ时，我根本不能专心，不时往你在的方向望去。霎那间，我觉得那个地方如果没有你，对我来说将只是个不会让我的视线停留的地方。就因为你，那里变得那么有意义，那么不一样，否则它将会和其他地方一样不起眼。你对我来说，是那么的特别，那么的重要。我一直认为，只有父母是最重要的，其他人就算失去也无所谓。但是，如果有人问我，爸爸和你同时跌进海里，而我只能救其中一个，我的选择是什么？这个问题让我哑然。我想我会救起我的爸爸，毕竟爸爸对我恩重如山，我不能置之不理。接着我一定会跳进海里，和你一起被淹死。如果，我不能救起你，我一定会内疚一辈子。我也永远不会快乐。想想，如果失去一个如此特别，一个让自己觉得温暖及安心的人，谁会快乐得起？当然，这不是最好的决定。因为，还有一个人会伤心，那就是我爸！话虽如此，但让他看到我一辈子不快乐，他应该也不会快乐吧？长痛不如短痛，我想这是最好的决定吧？当然，这些都不是重点。我不知道我们这段感情能维持多久，但我想让你知道，在我心里，你始终那么特别，一个让我觉得温暖，可靠的人。一个让我找到安心，平静的人。虽然，偶尔吵架，斗嘴，但这些都阻止不了想爱你的冲动，我依然能感觉到你的亲切，你的温暖。有时，会觉得自己很傻。总觉得在感情的方面特别依赖着你。我不想这样，却又改变不了。我总觉得这样会给你感情上的负担，我很怕有天你会负荷不了。我真的不知道这会不会成为你的负担，但我会很努力的学会做个在情感方面能独立的人。我不是没主见，不是没想法的人，但我真的不知道在爱情里的我为什么是那么的需要依赖着你。。和你在一起的日子，说长不长，说短不短。但在你面前，这些话总是那么的难以启齿。。我很傻，是不是？