It's over!

Really angry of myself!! I still feel sad that I went late for the exam :( haiz.. Keep telling myself it' over and no use crying over split milk..The exam won't be held again...Everything is over...There is nothing can change the current situation.. I have to accept the fact that I will get low marks for the test....No matter how many effort I put in it..It just screw up like that and there is nothing I can do now. Nothing!! Regret? For what? Sad? So what? It's all my fault!!Haiz...Everything is too late now...It's too late..Too late for everything!Haizz...I should delete it from my memory so I won't think of it again and again..I need to do it..I should not be defeated...Haiz..I have to admit this incident has been affected my mood for the coming tests. Haiz..I must think positively so it won't affect the coming test's performance...Haiz..just don't think about it..I might forget about it sooner or later..:(

Overslept!

I late for my microecons midterm test because I overslept!!(i dun even heard anything when the alarm ringing and my friends call my hp and shout at me outside my windows!!!) I wonder if i fainted or really sleeping so "tightly". I late for half an hour ++!!! What the hell am I doing?! Luckily the invigilator allowed me to sit for the test but the answer sheet will be collected at the same time as other candidates.. Actually the exam start from 11am to 12:30pm, but I don't even have one hour time to finish all the questions since I late for 30 minutes++. Haiz..I lose 3% out of 20% for those questions that I can't finished.I know all the answers but I don't have enough time to do!!!! Haiz...Not sure I can get full marks for the other answers also.I think it's impossible for me to get 15% and above just because of the stupid mistake I made.Overslept!!!Shit!!Luckily this is mid-term test.I can't imagine what would happen to me if this is final exam...The 2nd microecons midterm test will be on week 8. I am not gonna oversleep anymore...I must do it better than this time!!!

Cherish

Really feel blessed whenever be with you. You are just like a treasure. A special treasure that can cure my pain, regain my passion towards life and many more. I will cherish YOU with all my heart..I will not allowed anything to ruin this..Really unwilling to let it go no matter what.. Hope all these can remain unchanged until the end of my life..Thanks God for giving me a chance to have it...Really appreciate..

Perfectionist!!

I'm always disappointed in myself for not reaching the goal that I wanted to achieve!Some of them say what I want is just too perfect. It's not gonna be materialized. I don't think they are right. I am not a perfectionist. I know very well noone around the world could be perfect. I never expect myself to be the perfect one but why I still fail to achieve my target? Is it that I expect too much of myself? High expectation always comes with high disappoinment, this is what my friend told me. I don't believe it but now...haiz.. I always think that it will never come true if you don't even think of it or give it a try!!! I think I was wrong. Totally wrong! May be it is just not mean to be yours. You will never get it no matter how hard you tried. I always expect myself to achieve this and that. It's sad to know that I can't achieve the result that I wanted. It's even worse than you can't achieve others' expectations.Really feel bad. How am I going to continue to work on it? It seems like I have in no position to have it!! Longing for something always but it never comes true. I doubt it will come true.Have faith in myself? It doesn't work!

Lost again!!!

Hate myself. It's not complicated at all. It's just as simple as that. Please don't think too much!!! Stop blurring! Midterm test is coming soon. I should have prepared well for it but I feel so unprepared! Found it even hard after studying!!!! My brain is still so empty to answer those questions in my mind. Why? Why? Why? Should I stop asking why?! Why such stupid thing always happen to me? This makes me even more stupid!!!! Don't I look stupid enough?

有感而发

你的失望
我的难堪
我应如何面对？
是我
是我让你不开心
我知道
我无法弥补
我的过失
我更无法给你
你要的快乐
这一切
是否意味着
我不应该
跨过
这似有似无的界线？

无言

昨晚，和朋友一起吃晚餐时，有个老人走到我们的桌子向我们要钱。当时，我毫不犹豫地拿出了一块钱（我自己也没钱，所以能给的只有那一块钱）。正当我想给他时，整桌的人居然一起阻止我。当时还真的有点错愕，我没想到他们会有那样的反应。他们说，如果给他就是害他，纵容他，让他觉得他乞讨的行为是对的。但我觉得，也许他真的有他的苦衷。他们又说，他有手有脚，如果肯做工，怎么会有什么苦衷。我却觉得，现在找工真的不容易，对一个年轻人来说不容易，对一个老人来说就更加困难了。他们还说，如果我真的给他钱，他就会越来越得寸进尺。我想，放下尊严出来乞讨不是那么容易的。如果不是因为真的走投无路，我想他绝对不会放下自尊出来讨钱吧。他们说，他就是懒得做工才会这样，但我总觉得事情不是那么简单，至少他没有用别的方法来骗钱，他们却说这样也是欺骗！他们还说，我们没必要给他钱，即使是其他捐钱做善事的活动，我们也没必要参加，因为我们用的是父母的钱。不过，我觉得如果我父母在场，他们也会给他钱吧。哎！真的很无言。一边听着朋友的劝告，一边同情他。哎！结果，我选择逃避，走去隔壁的Watson看东西，等到他走出那间店，才回来。说真的，很同情他，也很不忍心不理他。如果是你，你会怎样做？